THE SOARING HEART by Julie Jordan Scott
The voice from within intoned "Your voice is
significant. Your dreams are significant. You are significant."
It was almost like hearing James Earl Jones booming directly
into my body. It was a feeling-hearing rather than a
biological hearing.
Freshly painted white walls and the smell of newly laid carpeting
filled my senses as water threatened to overflow from my eyes.
My voice teacher immediately got nervous because she thought
my tears were a result of her actions. She thought I was afraid
of the task in front of me.
"No, no, no. Its not that at all, it's not that." I paused to catch
my breath.
"Oh, then. The song?"
My dear teacher held a hint of a question at the
end of her words.
"No, no..its just that..its just..I am crying tears of joy, of honor,
of gratitude that I am finally doing something that I have always
wanted to do and this.this exact moment is the outcome."
In that moment, I stepped into a dream.
At Girl Scout Camp many years ago I became the radio alternative,
singing for the other girls in the "media starved" setting.
I frequently sang for any group of Pre-Teens choosing from my
carte du jour of Carly Simon, Carol King and an occasional
song from Girls Chorus at Glen Ridge Middle School.
In High School, I was a leader in the Choir because I have a
wide vocal range and I stayed out of everyone's business. I didn't get
involved with the choir clique: I was there for one reason.
I wanted to sing.
Once I "grew up" I stopped singing regularly.
In the early to mid 90's, I publicly sang for an audience twice. Once
I sang karaoke on a cruise ship and another time I helped out the
choir director of my church singing a duet on short notice.
Each time I sang my heart soared.
Each time after I sang I collected my soaring heart and
carefully put it back inside my chest where I thought it belonged.
It felt more comfortable to me to have it there. It was more
familiar than this heart soaring stuff. It felt comfortable.
As I reached into my late 30's, I wanted an activity
all my children could share even with their
wildly divergent ages.
My karaoke singing adventure began.
Yes, people poke fun at karaoke. At the same time, it is one
of the most fun ways to spend an evening with your friends and
family. In a short period of time I can move from Country to 70's
Singers to Rock and Roll and to Inspirational.
Karaoke is "just for fun".
I can sing with reckless abandon, accept compliments
all night long. Its a blast. And it is just not the same as taking a
voice class and taking the craft of singing seriously enough to
pay money for the privilege.
In honoring my desire to be heard in all aspects of my life, taking
voice classes honored my desire to allow my heart to soar freely,
to get lost in the music, to join with the divine to create a sound
far better than I can create on my own.
I also know that each time I honor a dream by taking some sort
of tangible, measurable action I receive rewards for that action.
Sometimes those returns aren't discovered immediately. Going
back to the feeling-hearing I mentioned initially, there is a
feeling-trust which speaks to me saying, "Keep following, keep
listening actively and remain open - the feeling-compensation
comes as you are open to it being received."
It is nearly a year since I took my first voice class. What I didn't
know back then was this particular chapter of heart soaring was a
door opening experience rather than an arrival.
That's how destiny takes form. It is a path - a journey - a flow which
we are able to join in one of many places. It is our choice to join our
destiny so that our heart, our spirit, our livelihood, our relationships,
our life and breath itself - will soar.
In two and a half weeks I will be joining an incredible group of actors
presenting "Into the Woods", a musical play written by Stephen Sondheim
and James Lapine. I have the marvelous joy of playing Jack's Mother: as in
the mother of the little boy who climbs the beanstalk and meets a Giant.
You see, I followed my destiny into my Voice Class which lead me to
an Acting Class. I didn't really want to take the Acting class. I thought it
was like being thrown a bone because there was no voice class to take.
I fetched it, anyway, figuring "I want to continue to stretch my creativity.
This is one way to do it."
This choice: to continue to follow my destiny and stretch creatively
lead me to the class which lead me to the audition which lead me to
casting which lead me to so many amazing, syncronistic
"this-has-to-be-divine" experiences and coincidences I can not
begin to express them all here.
Even in the moments when I sat here writing this piece it happened.
How else can I explain the sound clip for the CD on Amazon.com includes
a clip with my vocal part - Jack's Mom - which is not a starring character
but more of a supporting character -- as a feature you can listen to online.
The folks on Amazon.com only used a 60 second sound clip of the more
than 12 minute song and it's "my" clip which I can now share by linking
to it so you can hear a part of my experience?
Coincidence?
Or is destiny nodding its head, giving me another reward?
I am hearing something else. This something else involves you.
Destiny wants to speak to you. Your destiny might not sound like
James Earl Jones. Your destiny in its dearest most vivid and beautiful
form is calling to you.
It is saying "Your voice is significant. Your dreams are significant.
You are significant."
Now it is your turn to answer.
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Julie Jordan Scott is the Creator of the Passion Crafting Method.
Bring Art into Your Business and Business into Your Art
http://www.5passions.com to receive our ezine or look into
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